Saturday, November 17, 2007

A new adventure beckons

A new adventure beckons to my impatient soul: always on the look out for the next challenge, yet always yearning for the peace that come from within... Eluding me is a sense of accomplishment, and so I charge forward...

Its funny how life can change in an instant, and the battle you were waiting for is suddenly at hand, and you feel inadequate... but you know you need it, you know you can do it, you are just uncertain how to start addressing it... you're not afraid, just apprehensive...

I'm about to take a step which is huger than any i've taken before... I have been accepted into a master's program in barcelona... and it feels like a huge step to take... i've started taking spanish lessons... and have a lot of things to cross off my list... and i have to get ready to leave my beloved country, my friends, my family, my love... for one year...

I have been silent for a while because I really did not know what to say... I can't write when i'm troubled, when I have no vision, when it is dark in me... and it has been dark for a while, with broken dreams and postponed deadlines and a re-evaluation of self, and a re-adjustment of priorities... and after a period of disillusionment, i'm back in the twilight zone... I once read that the darkest hour comes before dawn... so maybe this new experience will quench my thirst and reveal the rays of sun peeking through the night... and when it is over, a new day would have begun, bringing me closer to my hopes and dreams...