Thursday, July 29, 2010

my rings

over the years, i have found my physical anchor to be a ring.
every finger on every hand is symbolic to me, and the ring itself too.
whether is was a gift, or self bought,
simple or elaborate
expensive or cheap

for me, it has always acted as a symbol
representing commitment
both to myself and towards others

a pact...
made with the heart,
acknowledged by the mind,
and acted upon by the body.

a beacon for my life energy,
and a reminder not to falter,
and to pick myself up after every hardship,
or sweet victory,
and go on...

for many years i have chosen
to wear a ring.

i have carefully selected
its shape, its color and its texture.

embued it with meaning,
and placed it on one of my fingers,
looked at it often during the day,
felt it while i drummed the steering wheel when driving,
and been marked by its imprint on my skin...

each ring was unique.
each stood for a certain dream.
sometimes for a person.

but today, i am wearing a ring for myself:
a commitment to me
to grow
to explore
to heal
to forgive
to hope
to risk
to search
to find
to connect
to be alone
to be at peace

over the course of a year, my right thumb has been graced with 3 different rings,
and this makes sense, for the seasons in me have been changing and evolving,
and at each stage had different needs.

my current ring is a simple steel band, which has been surprisingly hard to find,
and initially came with a little girl figurine...

nothing being random in this world,
it came as a reminder to honor and cherish my feminine side not just my masculine side...
to acknowledge and balance these 2 major forces co-existing in each of us, making us whole.

journey towards re-alignment

I have been trying to figure out what this blog is about, where it's aiming to go, what is it's contribution, and how it can communicate with others too. Since it is personal and i am currently all over the place, it too has been drifting somehow for the past few months...

Lots of the thoughts crossing my mind these days have to do with belonging, with passion, with goals and with direction.

I am on a journey to re-align, and while i find my right path, i will try many, in a sincere attempt to open up to the unknown, to the unfamiliar, to broaden my horizons and look at the world with new eyes...
unlearning to learn
discovering new media and tools
pushing my boundaries - geographically, literally and metaphorically

So with the conviction that clarity is underway, i will not wait for the perfect post, the poetic word, the compelling illustration... i will explore this void openly and without fear of failure, embracing it and moving on... following where the road may lead...

Monday, July 19, 2010

f l o w i n g

heightened state of awareness
prepared, but not expecting
ready to move on.

letting go,
piece by piece,
feeling lighter, much lighter,
not stuck in the waiting rut,
not bound to a territory,

ready to embark on a journey,
inwards and outwards,
and beyond.

embracing a new consciousness
seeking to create a story worth telling