Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Mourning our Ideals

I think today will be one of the scariest days of my life, as I slowly realise that the ideals of truth, justice and peace are dead. As I lay a wreath on the tomb of these great propellors of humanity, I wonder what the future holds, since the moderators of jealousy and greed have been put to rest.

Today marks a turning point in this war as 30 days of massacre, destruction, and violence fail to be sufficient to arrive at a ceasefire and ease people's suffering.

Today, we will be grateful to be alive. We will appreciate basic elements such as water, electricity, and fuel. We will be glued to our TV sets. We will pray for the people stuck under the rubble as well as those who perished underneath. We will accompany the refugees and greet them in their home away from home.

I was afraid of the war becoming my routine, as I kept on repeating: Tomorrow it will be over. Tomorrow they will come to their senses. Tomorrow it will be alright...

I think tomorrow has come.
However, we are far from alright.

We have all been systematically confined to whatever geographic location we happen to be in now as bridges and roads have been destroyed and fuel shortages are a reality. We have developed an immunity to bomb blasts and air raids, and hardly look up at the sky to see their source anymore. We have learnt not to depend on anyone but ourselves, and know that our survival is our problem. We have discovered that health care will soon become a luxury as hospitals run on emergency fuel and will soon be forced to compromise on the quality of care provided. We have pondered the future of our children, whose education has now been put on hold. We have witnessed a score of civilian casualties: children, men, women, and elderly... all killed with savagery and nonchalence. We have dipped our feet in the once blue sea only to find it a yucky black mess, a cemetary for all creatures of the sea. We have watched our souces of livelihood being taken away, and we don't know if we will still have a job when this is over.

When this is over... If this is over...
As the funeral procession carries on through different parts of Lebanon, through the busy cities and the forgotton villages, citizens shower the coffin with questions as they follow behind. But none of them know the destination, none know how long it will take to get there. None. As the ideals of truth, justice and peace are being buried, they cast a glance at the world they leave behind; they see the people whose eyes are glazed with tears unshed, whose heads are bowed, whose hearts are breaking, mourning the death of their ideals, their saving grace.


At Thursday, August 10, 2006 , Anonymous Ronny said...

I thank you again for the effort and your ability to share your mind in such a way that we can to some point understand what its like to see all humanitys ideals fading away.

And we may hope that one day the pen will be mightier than the sword...

At Thursday, August 10, 2006 , Anonymous satheeshkumar mv said...

I am the same "anonymous" from india.Nothing more to say..we get the news..try visiting, an extremist site which is banne din India. the have comments on the war..needless to say they are against muslims..But please dont think that All HINDUs are like that. in fact 99 percent of Hindus support Muslims.

At Thursday, August 10, 2006 , Blogger semim said...

joumana, i know it is easier said than done. But i just say u'll have to fight out the depression and the trauma. The world needs brave people like you to tell it the hard stories,to keep the flame of dissent burning.

At Thursday, August 10, 2006 , Anonymous Anonymous said...

joumy it's maya
I love what you are writing
There's no need to feel down. The only choice we have is to see this as an opportunity to evolve and catch a little more humanity. Something they will never have. And believe me no life can be lived happily without it.

All my love...
Keep it up. We will look back at these days.

At Thursday, August 10, 2006 , Blogger Angel said...

Lebanon will again rise up from the ashes.

At Thursday, August 10, 2006 , Blogger Jenm said...

I wonder if your blog was mandatory reading for the IDF and the Israeli government (along with all the others) if they would still be able to carry out their attacks on Lebanon. Every day, I read your blog (and others) to get the most unbiased news; the mainstream media doesn't seem to do justice to the human toll this war is taking. I can't imagine what you and the rest of the people of Lebanon are going through, but every day I read your blogs and try to understand. I wish there was something more that I could do for you. I wish the US government actually listened to me when I said "Not in my name." I wish I could actually be there and do something to help. It hurts me to my core every day I see the IDF attacking invaluable infrastructure that we all take for granted. It saddens me to think how far they are setting the development of Lebanon back, but most of all, how much they are hurting ordinary civilians who have as much of a right to life as them. I just want you to know that I think of you and the Lebanese people every day, and I am wishing and hoping for an end to the war.

At Thursday, August 10, 2006 , Anonymous Anonymous said...

i totally feel u girl. the way you write is beautiful. dont give up hope. i know it s hard. i feel exactly the same. it will end. it HAS to.
peace peace peace!

At Friday, August 11, 2006 , Blogger Ned said...

Lebanon was the country I was planning to visit next. I am stunned and can only watch in horror. It all feels unreal, and I search for the turn back button. My heart bleeds with you. How is Fairouz? Are her songs played on the radio?

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